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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I think I am beginning to understand depression. It's an ugly beast that slinks up behind you while you are out there living your life. It has only one goal--to destroy your life. It is cruel in how it attacks you body and spirit.
My eyes continue to get worse. The lower lids are definitely retracting also. My eyes hurt all the time now. Nothing seems to relieve the pain, itchiness, dryness, blurry vision. And my dept perception has gotten worse!!
I have been sick now for over 1 year. I feel that the last 12 months of my life have been stolen from me and I am very scared that I don't have anything left inside of me to fight with.
Anyone out there who has overcome this horrible battle ?????
Or does everyone lose?????

1 comment:

Christy (CPJ) said...

Hang in there - I know right now it feels like if all you've got to look forward to in life is feeling like this, it's not worth it.

Hear me when I say YOU WILL OVERCOME. I know exactly where you are - I was there for several months. Death seems like a release. But now 4 months after RAI I have finally gotten my old self back.

That woman you used to be, before the Graves and all that goes with it, is still there waiting to be released - YOU WILL GET HER BACK. You just have to fight with all the strength you have left to get her here.

Don't give up - I'm praying for you!!!