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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I just want to cry!!
I am so overcome with exhaustion of trying to be well.
I took myself off the anxiety meds, because i felt better and i don't want to live a life having to take 6,7,8 or more pills daily. I have been off of the meds for about 2 weeks. The first days were fine, with a few "anxiety attacks" (I was so proud that I managed without the meds).
Now I am beginning to wonder if this intense tiredness is because of the meds getting out of my system or something new ?!.
Graves Disease sucks!!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I don't think the day of rest and pampering worked!
I have been sick with my sinuses since then and have fought off one HUGE anxiety attack and a few smaller ones. Tomorrow I return to the days of "workin" on the fight of my life. The fight against what GD is doing to my body and my mind.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

I decided to pamper myself toady.....
With a facial, manicure and pedicure
With a deep conditioning treatment for my hair
With tweezing my brows
With whitening my teeth
With reading a great book
With no TV
I feel great today!!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I was so exhausted last night! I went to bed at 8:30!! I have learned to listen to my body and yet I still felt a little guilty about going to bed before my kids..... Today wasn't much better. I feel like a deflated balloon. I still managed to walk today- however I just "strolled" not really walking with the purpose to keep my heart rate up. w
I am not quiting the fight!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Friday -- I went to the eye surgeon in Nashville. My eyes have stopped moving and my hormones have leveled off enough for surgery!! After checking my eyes, the dr recommended that I have the eyelid retraction surgery first and then do the orbital widening, with possible followup of eyelids again. Dr submitted my file to insurance to get approval. Hopefully it will not be long before we know something.
***I had a rough weekend, with the anxiety from going to the dr's and the traveling. I just crawled into bed and stayed there!!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

How to you differentiate between anxiety, depression, hormones, graves, stress????
This is still a challenge to me. At the beginning of GD, I couldn't even tell which end is up much less was I reacting to anxiety, stress or depression. Now I think that i am better ONLY because of GOD and my FAMILY. Now when I think I am at the end of myself......I tell myself that Jesus loves me!! I believe that GOD has a plan for me and my life and that makes it better.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I am so much pain in my stomach and digestive track!!
I knew that I had to get moving and in between rain storms--I walked about 1/2 mile today.
I felt (emotionally) better. However, me scurrying up the gravel driveway, squeezing the cheeks, saying 'oh no oh no oh no' ; was quite a site for the birds.
Still loving the prayer part of my walk!
********I have just about finished my list of things that I have learned from GD & TED, I will be doing a special post when I finish.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I have been side-lined!!! My sinuses have won this minor battle. Hopefully I will be able to bounce back soon.............

Saturday, September 12, 2009

GO Family!!!
Today my son, daughter and I picked up trash on my walk (just 1/2 mile). We got a whole bag of trash just off of one side. I am so proud of them. And it encouraged me to walk today when all I wanted to do is lay in bed.
****My sinuses seem to be a Little off today. My right eye (the one bulging) has watered up all day and it itches like the dickens. And my nose-- lets just say that breathing is little complicated.

Friday, September 11, 2009

I walked last night with my son because he wanted to "be a part of my health". We didn't go far but it was another 1/2 mile. And I was so sore today that I just wanted to quit walking. BUT I knew that with GOD on my side that I could finish the walk. I did the whole 1.8 miles. I am still sore and took a long hot bath to relax!!
*****My eyes seem to be getting better. The depth perception issues are not lasting all day now. It seems like it comes and goes....??? Anyone got answers?????

Thursday, September 10, 2009

OK. Thanks to DH -who used the tripometer to get an actual mile- I now know that I DIDN'T walk 2 miles yesterday...... :( For about 2 seconds I was sad and then I realized that I walked 1.8 miles! GO ME!!! Just think 2 weeks ago I couldn't walk to the mailbox!!
Praise be to the Father Above that continues to give me strength. Today during the pray-walk, I was so overcome with emotion for a friend. Please remember him in your prayers, he is in a real bad place and needs guidance to get out.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I walked 2 miles today!!! It felt GREAT! I prayer-walked the final mile or so and I have been so blessed. GOD IS GREAT!
I had to reschedule eye dr appointment in nashville for the 18th. Family and Friends please continue to pray that my eyes be in such a place that surgery is not necessary.
I have adjusted already to new eating style. Not to bad. Still searching for something to 'snack' on that taste good!!

Friday, September 4, 2009

Hubby is home today and I walked with him! He has been great at encouraging me and lifting me up! i am so thankful that he is in my life.
On another note-- my eating journal has been the best idea that someone gave me. It has allowed me to "see" what kinds of food that I was eating. I just know that I am getting better.
I already fell stronger.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

I walked again toady, and it didn't wear me out! I was able to do some chores around the house before the exhaustion hit! Praise God! I also took the prayer list from Cedar Grove with me and prayed for those lilsted. I truely have enjoyed this part of my walking growth.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

I walked again today. I also prayed for the families that lived where I walked. Talk about really bringing GOD closer!! Praise be to the LORD for HE alone strengthens me!
***Last night was a big challenge for me. I am a late night snacker-- Bad i know. I got up 3 times and went into the kitchen and got nothing. But on the 4th time, I thought I was going to die if i didn't eat something, anything. So I caved and ate a banana and a piece of wheat bread.
This is going to be the hardest part of eating healthy!!
****I cooked fish last night for the fist time ever and my family loved it. Hubby also said that he wanted to eat more of it! Yeah

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

My Soldier

Today is my oldest son's birthday. Chris is turning 21 in Afghanistan; please continue to keep him and his safety in your prayers.
YES !!!
I started walking today. I walked .93 miles at 36 minutes.
Got a call from lab-- not so good news.
Bad cholesterol is way over, good cholesterol is way way low. And triglycerides are high.
Dr is putting me on Lipitor-- check back in 3 months
I believe that I can beat this too!!