I don't feel like I am reclaiming my life
I feel like my life is slippy away and becoming just another day in bed

I stayed in the bed until 11:00. Then I had to drag myself out and try to function like a human.
I am so exhausted, that even my bones feel tired.
My eyes have hurt all day.....
either too dry, too itchy, not enough focus, or crazy dept perception issues~~~just no relief.

I basically did stay in the bed all weekend!
i am so tried of this kind of life.......
Sick all the time, Sore and Hurting, No energy

My energy levels are already sliding back down! It just seems like my levels are not fluctuating as much as in the past. but they also are not getting as high as in the past.
I don't know what else to do.....
Started back on the anxiety meds again today.
And I am exhausted. I am ready to curl up in the bed for the weekend.........
My eyes bother me more and more each day. Emily thinks that left eyelid (on bottom) has started to retract also. All i know, is that I am back to wearing hats all the time because direct light hurts and had been giving me headaches again.
Anybody out there ???
I sure could use some encouragement :(

Just a few things going on with me . . . .
1) My energy level seems to be slowly increasing.
2) My eyes are bothering me more daily~ they seem to get 'tired' by early afternoon.
3) I decided not to completely come off the anit-depressants~ just lowered the dose.
4) My emotions are more manageable, not as drastic minute-to-minute.
5) My body 'aches' by the end of the day.
6) I never feel rested. I am exhausted all the time.
7) I am considering starting the anxiety meds again~ I am on-edge almost daily now.
8) It is hard to carry on a conversation, I forget alot of things~ like words, thoughts....

I have had a rough time, the last few weeks.
I wanted to share a short version of of dream that I had last night..........
I deamed about Jesus. And that He told me that He was with me and that He loved me and that I was not alone!!! Praises to His name!!!

I got a call from the dr this morning. Endo said that I do need to up my thyroid meds. AND he said that is the reason that I have been so tired and bone weary. He also said that because my numbers are sooooo high that it might take up to 2 weeks to regulate!! UGHHH
I go back in 4 weeks to re-check levels. {My TSH level was stabilized at .5}
******No eye surgery because I am now considered in the "hot phase" and my eyes will change!
I am so depressed and upset!! But am so thankful that the dr didn't think that there was an underlying problem--like with pituitary gland or thymus gland.
The headaches are back in force, I have been battling them since Saturday afternoon. It seems like they are waves just washing over me.

Just got a call from the dr's nurse. They want me to come back in and have more bloodwook!
My TSH levels are etremely high. It is at 23. I'll get randy to take me over there this afternoon and find out what TSH levels were at last visit!

I am exhausted, but I had to wash my sheets and clean my bathroom. Those simple chores have my body ready to drop!!
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Got a call from the nurse at the DR around 8am. She asked some q's about my meds and said that the dr was looking over the bloodwork and going to talk to another dr and then he will call me!! WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?????

Just so tired, I laid around all day friday and saturday.
And on Sunday-- I didn't even get out of the bed!!

I went to the dr today. I told him how my energy levels are just depleted. That I can't seem to function. We also discussed coming off the depression meds. I will have to wean off over the next 4-6 weeks. If symptoms come back, I am to go back up in dosage!!
DR also did more bloodwork. TSH levels, calcium, CBC, and I don't know what else. Dr told me that I am doing everything just right (my eating habits and walking) to help lower the cholesterol. He will test that in about 5 weeks.

My energy levels seem to be returning, however, I still am very tired. Most days i barely function, I can't walk as much so I am working really hard on my food intake. Still no word on the eye surgery from the insurance.....