Friday ~~
Hubby took me to see Dr Ralph Wesley (eye surgeon) in Nashville. I have the all clear to go ahead with OD -- Orbital Decompression Surgery. I just have to wait for insurance approval. We will be doing the right eye first then 10-14 days later we will do the left eye.
Dr said that I will have to recover for 2-3 months before the next surgery, either straightening my turned in eye, or eye lid retraction surgery.
It was another long day with the car travel, anxiety attacks and then the great depression about having 2 separate surgeries on my eyes. Where the dr will drill out pieces of my skull bones!!
On top of all that craziness, I got a head and sinus cold thing going on. Even my throat is tender!

Yipppee

I got a call today on blood work from lst week.
My TSH is .88 . I was excited, I had the nurse repeat it twice to make sure i was hearing it right.
The nurse also said that GP is clearing me for surgery.
Hubby is taking me back to Nashville on Friday to see Dr. Ralph Wesley to discuss surgery options. Right now we are leaning heavily toward the orbital decompression, NOT the eyelid retraction.
Depression "waves" are more pronounced. And yet the anxiety attacks seem the same ????
My skin is changing its composition, from normal to oily and from combination to oily.
Great! Now I look and act like a teenager!!

Wahoooooo !!

I don't have anything wrong with my cornea. Specialist believes that it is Graves related, no damage to any part of my eyes. Referred me back to eye surgeon with the go ahead for surgery.

Going to GP today and hopefully will be getting new insight ~~

I go to the cornea specialist in a few hours........
I was able to get an earlier appointment and now I am scared of finding out......
Please pray for me

I have an appointment with cornea specialist Dr David Harris for March 24th.
It is so frustrating.........
I have to have 3 corrective eye surgeries in order to MAYBE correct the double vision & blurriness. And yet, I can't do anything until this NEW problem is checked out.
Meanwhile, my muscles still ache and i have been off the lipitor now for over 2 months -- so it should be completely out of my system. My emotions have been upside down and sideways.
Is there really a NORMAL?
I have been struggling with not laying down these burdens and turning them over to God.
I know that He will provide me with comfort and rest and He will guide me.
But it is hard knowing something and yet .......
I'm still hanging on to the problems... why?????

Hubby took me to eye surgeon yesterday. It was another crazy experience!!
The dr doesn't want to do surgery on my eyes right now because of my extreme light sensitivity. I tried to explain it the best that I could. What I came up with is this.....
light feels like knives poking into my eyeball. Very painful. The eye surgeon thinks that I have some NEW underlying problem not related to Graves and is sending me to a cornea specialist. I will know more next week.
When I got home, I had a huge anxiety attack. I had my hopes up that my eyesight would be restored -- no double vision, blurriness or light issues-- within a few weeks with surgery. And the realization that I am facing yet another hurdle was too much for me to handle.
Thankfully mom keep my son for the night because the loud wailing and uncontrollable sobbing would have scared him for life ! hahaha

The muscle pain is incredible!! I hurt so bad. I have been trying otc meds and today tried a hot soak and then some biofreeze cream. it seemed to help for a few hours. But now i am wondering how i will be able to sleep......